Growing Calm has been gestating for many years and continues to be a reflection of my current life and spiritual practices. I have worked with various forms of prayer, meditation, devotion, healing and ritual for as long as I can remember. I have always walked the path of life giving space to my divine self and leaning in to Mystery. My working life has been eclectic but I have found myself circling around the same things in different ways. Being present, being creative, and holding space for others.
The last few years of my life have presented me with my biggest challenges, stresses and anxieties and I found myself digging in deep to find the resources I needed within and beyond myself to get through some very tough times. I am very grateful to be the mother to two beautiful healthy young boys both conceived through IVF. The short hand version of the story of their coming into being is our first-born was difficult to conceive, followed by a stressful pregnancy, traumatic birth, then a fragile babe in NICU for 6 weeks. Our second son was a little more straight forward and was born a big healthy bub. Then there is of course the no small task business of mothering these two miraculous creations! What a journey it continues to be!
One of the most difficult things I have found since becoming a mother is being able to maintain a sense of self and continue to nurture my inner life – working out how to find a balance between all that we give, in love and care, to others while making sure our own cup is still full. There have been days when my needs haven’t been met and days I’ve felt so deep in the care of others, I wasn’t even conscious I was running on empty. Over time, through trial and error, I applied and adapted practices and experimented with new ones that I could fit into my new life with two little ones in tow. On the days when I am centred, happy and more content, I feel the overflow through to my whole family is real. Not only do I now have a responsibility to myself to be at my best, I have a responsibility to the small humans watching me with trust in their eyes. My little Spiritual Gurus, inviting me to show them a way to be in the world.
I’m committed to striving for less of those moments when I feel I don’t have much more to give, and more moments where I am a presence that is engaged, conscious, happy, calm and fulfilled.
I hope you find the practices that I share, an invitation for you to love, mother, and live with heartfelt awareness, in deep connection with yourself, your loved ones and the earth.
Blessed Be x
I have spent a good part of my adult life pursuing knowledge of the body, mind and spirit through dance, spiritual practice, and service to others. I have a Bachelor of Arts in Dance (UWS, Nepean) and have many years experience teaching Composition, Improvisation, and Dance Technique to High School and University students. I have been performing and choreographing with my own collaborative trio The Fondue Set since 2001, and also as an independent artist with various other performance companies. I have worked as a Support Worker in Mental Health, and as a Carer for the elderly and physically disabled. Over the last few years I have been focusing on teaching dance to 2 to 6 year olds through the creative dance school Big Steps Little Feet and undertaking the incredible journey of being the Mother to two young boys.
Concurrent to my dance practice, my spiritual path has seen me study meditation, yoga, ritual and healing in many forms in Australia, the UK and India. I have been a Remedial Massage Therapist (DRM, Australasian College of Natural Therapies) and a Reiki Master (traditional Usui method) for over 20 years. I hold a Certificate in Meditation and Holistic Human Development from the International Meditation Teachers and Therapists Association, (IMTTA) comprising of Certificates in Meditation Teaching, Chair Yoga Instruction and Holistic Counseling. I also hold a Post Graduate Certificate in Meditation for Children. I am a Graduate of the School of Shamanic Womancraft founded by Midwife Jane Hardwicke Collings. This course was a two- year journey studying amongst other things, connecting with the wisdom of seasonal and life cycles, ritual, magic, and the art of facilitating transformation.
I recently completed a Trauma Informed Facilitation Workshop through the Melbourne Process Work Centre, and Tara Brach’s Meditation and Psychotherapy, a Professional Training Course for Integrating Mindfulness into Clinical Practice.